Sunny Southern California

Today was a great day!  It was a beautiful, hot day here in Southern California.  We had some of the boy’s friends over to play for a few hours while their mommy went to a doctor’s appointment with her littlest.  The kids rode bikes and played outside in our asphalt jungle here.  I love being in the sun, so it was delightful.  As my kids get bigger, some things get easier.  Watching other people’s kids is one of those things.

After they left, I was able to get some packing done while my neighbor took the biggest on walk.  Sorting through books is always easiest without the reader of those books. ;-)  We ended up getting pizza for dinner and enjoyed some time with Daddy.  Did I mention that I love being in the sun?  Daylight savings is so much fun.  It brings back such memories of being a little girl and playing for hours outside in bare feet.  Summer is my absolute favorite season, even when it’s HOT.  You can’t beat those warm summer evenings….ahhhhh.

On a baby related note…today I felt a little more sad than previous days.  I know that feelings will come and go, and I’m ok with that.  We were so excited to welcome this little baby into our family.  There is some comfort in the hope that the Lord may bless us again with another child, but I’m still sad about this baby.  I never realized just how much we, as mothers (and fathers too) start investing in our children from the moment we know that God has given them life.  Just think about all the hopes and dreams and prayers you offer up from the moment that test says positive.  Your mind fills with time lines and mental pictures of what will be, and how, and who will be there.  Who is that in my womb?  How will this precious one change our family?  How will the others relate to him or her?  How will it feel to love another little one so intensely?  There are so many things that fill your mind when you are expecting a little life.  It is an amazing thing.  So, now there is this strange transition back to the way things were before.  Those hopes and dreams won’t be realized for this baby, and that is sad.  I am thankful that the Lord promises to use this for good in our lives and that He is with us as we walk through it.  May He be glorified through this trial in our lives and use us to minister to others in a way we may not have been equipped to before.