Prayerless-ness

I’d like to share a quote from Jim Eliff that I read today in a handout I picked up at church a few weeks ago. The article is in a newsletter called, Around the FIRE.

“Do you feel your need to pray? A person who has no need to pray cannot be living by faith. Prayerless-ness says, ‘I am sufficient in myself for everything required of me.’”

Ok, Stephanie. Let it sink in. Yes, I need to pray. I know this. But am I doing it? Am I crying out to him moment by moment, thought by thought? When the patience is waining, am I pleading for His patience? When by body is not working like it should, but I can’t stop caring for my family, am I crying out for His strength? When forgiveness must be given, but I want to hold on to the pain, am I begging Him to make me like Him? Honestly, most of the time I’m not. I try on my own to make it work out and then I fail. I exhaust my resources and then wallow in despair - when the One who can fill me stands waiting. He’s not waiting because He has to wait for me to make the first move. His hands are not tied. Yet He waits. He wants me to see my need for Him. That my well is empty and His is overflowing with exactly what I need. His supply is endless and mine is non-existent without His grace. So, why don’t I look to Him? Why don’t I ask?

Lord, please teach me to look to You. Teach me to turn my head to You, the Maker of Heaven and Earth. The One who formed me and gives me breath and strength. Father, make it natural for me to whisper prayers of dependence upon You all day and night. I want Your light burden for mine is too heavy!